Weight Loss Confessions

It\’s been a while since I\’ve made a blog post. Lately it\’s been a little rough for me to be consistent with this weight loss journey. I don\’t know if it\’s because I genuinely have not had the time, or pure laziness. To be honest, it makes me slightly disappointed in myself. I mean seriously… this isn\’t the first time that I started this weight loss journey and feel like I\’ve completely slacked off. BUT, maybe I\’m being a little too hard on myself.

It\’s a marathon and NOT a sprint!

Part of me feels like I tend to add a little too much to my plate and then I come to a dead stop when I can\’t keep up with it all. For example… I told myself that I was just going to work out for 1 hour every single day and just practice being consistent, but then I realized that working out wasn\’t going to do justice if my eating patterns were complete trash. So, I then decided that I was going to start intermittent fasting, which didn\’t last because I don\’t like being restricted. After that I decided that I wasn\’t going to be so strict on myself, but I would just listen to my body and watch what I was eating as well as know when enough was enough portion-wise. However, that sometimes leads to not eating for way too long.

Starvation is NOT that answer to losing weight!

Often times, I get so busy that I just don\’t eat at all and what seems to happen is my body starts to hold on to whatever I do eat because it doesn\’t know when the next meal will be. By the way, I\’m not sure if that is a myth or truth… it\’s just my opinion and what I was once told. I figured that from now on I would just eat healthier options. Screw counting calories, forget trying to eat during certain hours… I\’m just going to live.

Screw the scale!

I will tell you something that I did that absolutely made me feel great!… I stopped focusing on the stupid scale. Seems like I was weighing myself every other day and getting so annoyed at the 0.2lbs that seemed to teeter totter up and down. So I said screw the scale!

Losing weight is much easier when you don\’t focus on weight loss. Does that make sense? Like, just enjoy life and set the intention to be healthier. Make the decision and walk the path.

Yes, sometimes I doubt the process.

Often times I care too freaking much about what other people think of me and that keeps me in a space of pure misery because I\’m trying to live to someone else\’s standards and not my own. The process of shedding unwanted pounds doesn\’t happen by forcing yourself through some sort of bootcamp and negative self-talk. It happens when you love yourself enough to live a good and healthy life.

The most important thing in the journey is to learn to love the skin you\’re in!

This \”love yourself\” thing has been quite a challenge for me because I am so used to seeking validation from others. Due to my childhood, I always felt like I needed to be accepted and in order to be accepted, I needed to look a certain way. When actually this was the biggest lie that the enemy tried to get me to believe for quite some time and it worked. Not anymore though! I am done with being the victim in life.

The enemy tries to deceive me with all sorts of lies like telling me that I am not worthy of being loved if I look the way that I do and that I will never find the man of my dreams because he won\’t find me attractive. I am so done believing the lies and I\’m ready to build a new self-image because I truly deserve to see myself in a better light.

So, no more negative self-talk, I\’m over the drama. No more restrictive diets and starvation. It\’s time to just love me for me and move on with my life.

This wasn\’t the easiest post to write because it somewhat leaves me vulnerable and I know that someone is going to read it, but I hope that my truth helps to inspire you to learn to let go of restrictions and boundaries that you may have set on yourself in order to love yourself freely!

Thanks for reading 🙂 and God Bless you!